Proceed with Caution: Strong Feminine Influence Ahead! I must admit there have been more than a few times when I’ve stopped mid-flight, like some poised stage actor, at that one final instant before you accidentally step off that enormous cliff. And in this moment, I have wondered so innocently, “What do I do?”
There are many situations that can present in our modern world. I believe that the modern woman is stretched so far beyond what has been our traditional roles, that even in this great year of 2014, I feel like a cave-woman, washing out my skins in the river. It’s important to remember that even though we are highly equipped these days to zoom in and out, it might be prudent to take time out of your week, every week, to touch back down. Literally put your bare feet onto Mother Earth, in her dirt, her dampness, her sometimes stickery greens…
It all feels like a test to me. So if we are being asked to stretch, a lot, then okay. I can do that. The best moment in my morning is that first long enjoyable stretch standing in the wet grass that is my tiny front yard. It is so cute and so poignant, that Mother Nature herself is right at the very edge, at the ready on the entire periphery that is my domain, such as she be. Whatever their test was or is, I’ve managed to fit in my agenda as well, and I like to think that it is a compliment and well worth the enduring effort.
I see so many amazing women now, thanks to the internet. We still visit, and we share. Some ladies might not know it, but when they share their family celebrations on social media, like pictures of relatives, great spreads on the table, and their own emotional words to garnish, people like me who miss that so very much, can once again remember and relish those times. It is a truly amazing gift.
There’s always a bigger stick. We just have to get over that. As I try to re-arrange my mind and my environment, and my life to include another new person, unexpected and yet completely not… it feels like this game we are in is actually much more than just a test. It is an inter-active learning field that is the high-tech version of a “scratch-n-sniff…” :) They say everything we perceive as matter is just an energy field that vibrates. Understanding that my emotions and energy, what I give forth also create such fields, ripples into the universe, it feels like second nature, like moving through a landscape and waving my arms and voila’ — there before me appears something else new and wonderful and exciting!
Truth is, I am working harder at 59 than I ever thought I could. I thought by now, I could just kick back and coast for a while. Oh, no! :) That tendency is evidently not in me, thank goodness. Things are speeding up and you would do well to keep up, if you can. How do you do that? By not becoming overwhelmed by anything. Do not let Anything Completely break you down to the catatonic state we all know. Oh sure, you can have a little mini-meltdown on the back porch, punch a pillow in the laundry room, or if you are truly at your wit’s end, run, run, run… just put on your shoes and take off!
Someone in my family used to tell me, “Just buy some time.” That is very good advice if you are feeling confused and a bit disorganized, not knowing where to start. You have been dealt a great blow, and you must heal and shore up your reserves again. The goal could be to envision something even better. A new Lauren that is more flexible, more wise, more giving, more patient, and much much more beautiful! <3
Here’s what I learned in the experience of standing alone. You aren’t going to die! Whatever problem or obstacle, whether it is real or merely a worry, can be healed, changed, de-railed or avoided altogether. Nothing is ever written in stone. It is okay to change your mind a hundred times or more! That’s how you get it right! All you have to do is to look into the faces of your children to know if you are on the right track. The innocence and the wonder is all still there. You can ignite their curiosities and their interests, and in so doing, find your own bliss in these moments.
Remember this too! Things can change in a New York minute! So best be ready for the time when you will Want To Be More! When you meet someone who somehow makes you better than you really are! But until then, you are good just like you are. In fact, you are surrounded in a great sphere of energy built of love and protection and pride and joy from all of your soul-family that has come before you. They sing and laugh and cry with you all the way. They hold you up when you don’t think you can breathe.
And if mistakes happen, tragedy strikes, sadness grabs you, that’s okay too. I am the most accident-prone person on the planet. If there is a mess to be made, I will make it. But I have to try. We have to try. At least when they call our ticket, we can stand up and go, “Okay, I did my best.” And if that is the end of this test, well, I used to feel a great deal of melancholy at the end of the year when I closed that little booklet and set down my pencil. I knew that this year was done, my time in this class was over. But we did not die. We kept going. I think that is the lesson to learn. And it’s okay to reach for that bliss, if you can, whenever you can!
Lauren, follow your bliss!